The saying goes something like this: If you want to make God laugh, make a plan. I think he’s laughing right now.
My plan was to launch the first three titles of my Mata Hair suspense series on April Fools day 2015. A demanding but doable task, I thought. But then, along came an obstacle. Now we all have bumps on our road, big and small, but this one has razor-sharp teeth that bite. It hid in the shadows and pounced, blindsiding me.
Now, I’m not looking for pity. Trust me, I’ve been wallowing in a sea of my own for a week. And I’m not looking for sympathy. At least I don’t think I am. I just need to rant.
My obstacle? Another Cancer diagnosis. The big C for a second time. Urrrrrgh!
I put on a brave face for the world, but I’ll let it slip for a minute. If you’ve been there, you know how I’m feeling… the hollowed-out gut, the dry rancid mouth, the sight of death’s door looming inside your head. A crippling fear stirring in every fiber of your body, echoing through your bones like a demon from hell. And worst of all the lonely, sleepless nights that feel like they’ll never end. I really wanted to never do this again. Can you hear the laughter?
Seven and a half wonderful years ago I was diagnosed with breast cancer. The next two years were taken up with… let’s just say nasty stuff. Now, I have endometrial cancer, most likely the direct result of the cancer drug I’ve been taking.
Yup, my card came up again. I will deal with it. <deep breath> I will endure whatever tests, procedures and drugs I’m given with as much dignity as a woman in a hospital gown that doesn’t cover her ass can, and I will heal. I’ll also spare you the details.
But… I really don’t want to be sidetracked from my writing plan. Now, I’m laughing. As if my plan is really that important in the big scheme of things. Life is funny. At least, mine is. It teaches me, sometimes in the most unpleasant ways, but it teaches me. I move forward.
End of rant.
I’ll be off-line for a while (probably two-three months) to catch my breath, but I will be back. Count on it.
Best Wishes to all
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